one word - bye. ❤

goodbye *mata stim*

sejak dua tiga entry yang lepas aku sedar yang aku update banyak entry pendek pendek. entah lah. my life is getting boring? actually me myself pun tak tawu lah kenapa. tak banyak benda nak cakap kat sini. apa yang aku leh, eh tak, rajin nak taip aku taip. malas datang, takde lah. 

oh tadi petang, eh actually semalam something about A THING dah clear betul. that boy, eh should i call him with some other proper word rather than 'boy'? but my head is getting dumb as it fails to well-f(x). so, let it be just use that word of boy. the capital one, hesh bee lah. he's off with a girl that i know. why? he's having a new relationship with someone that i never thinking of! kira apa aku nampak masa ary jumaat tu bukan ilusi semata mata. my eyes were not lying me. all i can say is, he is dumbass ever. the girl before is much better than the new one. and me myself also admit that she even better than me. so what more he can say? i can say nothing, but all i can say is - the feeling towards him are all gone. definitely, all are gone. the feeling just like i've flushed off after having a nice moment in some place called 'toilet'. tiga ratus enam puluh with bulat kecik kat atas berubah. say 'tata' to my old sweet wuwi crushie. 

apa yang aku nak cakap sekarang. apa. aku tak dapat nak bayangkan macam mana perasaan aku. aku rasa happy, bahagia. oh tak. aku rasa kosong. macam rasa mula mula dulu. macam rasa masa sebelum aku kenal ngan kau. even better even happier. aku tak tawu sebab apa. mungkin sebab aku dapat lihat ngan jelas apa aku nak sebenarnya. bukan kau tapi someone yang better. aku tak salah buat silap dulu. dan aku rasa aku boleh berbahagia cakap ngan kau kalau kita still satu class. 

i'm happy for your happiness too

so, with no more doubt my blog will never mention your name again. perhaps. i wish u happy with ur new girl. have a happy ending! ❤