Vintage ❤

16:55

dan aku masih ulang alik keluar tandas. ass dah pedih nie. stomach-ache punya pasal. malam semalam aku tak dapat nak tido lena! every few minutes my tummy cried. this adorable asshole keep vomiting since they're not well enough. makan ayam kenduri punya pasal lah nie. ayah cakap maybe sebab makan itik. tapi seingat aku, aku tak makan itik kat kenduri tu. aku amik ayam semata mata. confirm nie ayam punya angkara.

sekarang aku duk tahan sakit jer nie. according to my plan, hari nie nak keluar g umah si dayah. then nak bank in duet nanad. disebabkan perut duk meresap resap. i have to cancel it. maaf dayah! takmo aku g umah kau dalam masa perut duk meragam. tak selesa my asshole nak muntah bagai nanti. so, i delay our appointment on tomorrow morning. deal!

bila tiba hari rabu semua pakat duk update pasal 'Wordless Wednesday'. tapi aku tak pernah pulak main benda alah tu. Wordless Wednesday? uh oh, i never once update my blog using that two vocabs. sebab aku kena cakap. kena sebab aku suka nak menaip. rajin? sebati dengan jiwa ini.

vintage.

i've drowned into this world called 'vintage'. selama yang aku tawu, vintage nie merujuk kepada pembuatan wine. tapi this word is used widely among us nowadays. vintage tak lagi merujuk hanya untuk pembuatan minuman - wine - semata mata. well vintage is used to mention about the year which wine was widely made. tahun dimana wine merupakan minuman yang diminati ramai. tahun asas pembuatan wine. so, apa yang aku suka tentang vintage adalah fashion waktu tu. retro. yes, more to retro. well as i wanna you to know that im a classic people. sukakan benda benda lama. even nama pun kalau boleh aku lebih sukakan yang lama dan klasik macam Melati atau Oktober. aku pasang cita cita nak bagi nama kat anak aku nama klasik macam tu. i know it's kinda weird call your kids with name 'October' tapi aku suka. aku suka benda yang rare. yang orang rasa pelik. for me, it's amazing!

theBalm❤  

bila aku masuk sasa, woah ..it makes me totally happy. some of the things, i mean make-up thingy of course are all design in vintage year. classic much! aku suka. suka sangat! compact powder, blusher, eye-shadows are all living in adorable compartment. macam nak grab semua then bawak lari. mieheheh.

bila cakap tentang vintage, kepala selalu bayangkan Marilyn Monroe. well tu jer contoh paling obvious kalau aku nak bagi imaging. the way she wears  her outfits. her fashion. her make-up way. a pure one. the one who came from that adorable year. vintage things actually bring back all the memories. ramai yang cakap macam tu. dan aku sepenuhnya bersetuju dengan statement tu. even im not somebody who born and living in that vintage year, but i do feel the feeling. susah nak define perasaan tu macam mana, tapi ada satu perasaan yang bila aku tengok benda benda retro - klasik - vintage nie, dia buat aku rasa tenang. mysterious. yer it's mysterious. dan aku memang suka benda benda mysterious. aku tak tawu kenapa.

Mystic Falls. aku jatuh cinta bila aku tengok Vampire Diaries. jatuh cinta dengan vintage dresses bila tengok Catherine punya outfits. bila tengok Elena pakai masa ada party with retro theme. lagi mendalam masuk dalam lah minat aku nie. kegilaan yang nyata. aku hilang minat pada baju moden. bukanlah aku benci tapi aku lebih, minat aku lebih kepada retro. vintage style.

aku sedar bukan aku sorang jer yang minat vintage style. ramai lagi kat luar sana. kita sama. aku kalau nak hadiah memang pasang dada, angkat tangan tinggi tinggi luas luas nak hadiah benda design vintage. tak kisah lah apa pun, makeup case pun aku suka. even bag pun aku terima jer. t-shirt? aku suka! necklace, well u got it right babe. haha.

vintage is my possession.

tegar dalam dunia sendiri,

tyra ismail

Oldies, it's really inevitable!

“Can you blow my whistle baby, whistle baby

Let me know

Girl I'm gonna show you how to do it

And we start real slow

You just put your lips together

And you come real close

Can you blow my whistle baby, whistle baby

Here we go”

                                                                                   -Flo Rida

“I don't care who you are 

Where you're from 

What you did 

As long as you love me 

Who you are 

Where you're from 

Don't care what you did 

As long as you love me"

                                                                               -Backstreet Boys

Can you see any differences in these 2 songs? Sekali tengok mesti tak dapat. Sama jer lah dua dua nie, lagu inggeris. Try dengar lah ahmois. Ah sama jer lah. Apa yang bezanya pun. Apa yang jadi masalahnye pun kan. Dua dua pun sedap. Halwa telinga. Manes manes. masam masam. pekat pekat, cair cair. likat likat. Nahh, obviously lain. Cuba beza lyrics As Long As You Love Me ngan Whistle tu. Mana lagi bertamadun agak agak huh? The backstreets boys’ much better. Flo Rida's? tahap kaki jer aku rase. takat nak dengar leh lah, nak sampai tahap jadi 'fav song'..tapayah lah nak simpan angan angan, cita cita. these two lil adorable ears need songs yang leh buat tayik telinga dia cair meleleh keluar, bukan yang buat lagi keras meghekang kat dalam tu.

In my opinion, old songs much better. the lyrics are all clean rather than nowadays songs. They’re all craps. Uh oh, not at all but many of them. If you want me to list down nowadays songs yang memang cerita dalam dia all about sex pun aku leh list down. Salah satunye lagu Lemonade by Alexandra Stan.

“I was so wrong

So sunny

You're the only one for me

I was so wrong

And now I really wanna...come along...sunny

You're the only one for me

Sunny, happy rhythm music, no money

I'm takin' you on holiday

Sipping yellow lemonade”

Okay, get it already? Sipping yellow lemonade? Jangan noob sangat lah tak paham apa maksud dia. LOL. aku pun tak paham kenapa perlu nak cerita benda benda macam nie dalam lagu. Nampak tak they just play with the words. There are always have hidden meanings. all we need to do is 'listen', not just 'hear' to them. and only then u might catch all the hidden meanings. How about this song of Wild Ones by Flo Rida..again? :O

“Hey I heard you were a wild one

Oooh

If I took you home

It'd be a home run

Show me how you'll do

I want shut down the club

With you

Hey I heard you like the wild ones

Oooh”

Any comment regarding to this lyrics? I told you. It’s crap. Apa yang dia nak sampaikan pun aku tak tawu. Uh oh, sekang nie memang pattern kalau nak ajak 'main' kena nyanyi nyanyi dulu kot kat sana. Jadahnya wey! Wild ones huh. Retard. Home run huh. Rubbish. Lots of Lack!

Mungkin sekarang nie dorang kat sana dah mati idea nak buat lirik kot. Semua kepala duk pikir pasal sex jer. All the times. Takde dah word ‘cinta sejati’ aka ‘true love’ in its very own language. Pada dorang benda tu jer yang leh bagi kebahagiaan yang immortal. Is it?

This is the major reason on why aku suka pada lagu lama lama. Even cleaner, even better. the lyrics are really made my day. tak pernah jemu, tak pernah kecewakan aku. Haih. ayat makan cekam aku bagi. tapi masalahnye memang betul pun. bila dengar lagu sekarang ngan lagu dulu, jauh sangat bezanya. sekarang punya lagu macam nak bagi kaki jer. bukan nak bagi sedap hati, lagi buat hati tabest ade. entah ape ape jer maksudnya. lagi lama dengar lagi merepek. alih alih aku bukak lagu lama. Uhoho.

“Don't want to close my eyes

I don't want to fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you babe

And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating

And I'm wondering what you're dreaming

Wondering if it's me you're seeing

Then I kiss your eyes

And thank God we're together

I just want to stay with you in this moment forever

Forever and ever”

See, makna mendalam si Aerosmith nie bagi. As a girl with a clean heart, this song is totally made my heart flutter. uh oh my heart is fragile. Mieheh. Korang leh beza kan lagu dulu ngan lagu sekang. Obvious sangat. Even lagu sekarang bukanlah semua kotor tapi most of them maksud aku. So, jangan salah paham atas apa aku cakap kat sini. Im just sharing my opinion.

"My baby

You are the reason I could fly

And because of you

I don't have to wonder why

Baby, you

There's no more just getting by

You're the reason I feel so alive"

Thump, thump and thump! Marc Anthony tak pernah buat aku kecewa ngan lagu dia. Malar segar bak kata klasik nasional. *geli tetiba sebut camtu* Miahahah. So, sekarang nie aku rasa korang leh nampak beza lagu sekarang ngan lagu dolu dolu kan. dan aku strongly believe even banyak lagu baru dah sekarang, orang still ramai suka lagu lama lagi. well, golden oldies lah kata kan. lain 'feel' dia. Can you feel the difference? Ahahah.

bukan nak hentam lagu sekarang, lagu sekarang pun leh tahan hebat masing masing. ada yang still bermakna bagi aku macam lagu I won't give up by Jason Mraz, More than this by One Direction, Holes Inside by Joe Brooks, and Distance by Christina Perri. so between the two types of them, which one might be your choice. The power is in your hands. Beralih lah ke Celcom eh tak, oldies. Pomot sikit lagu lelama since aku suka old skool old skool, vintage vintage, classic classic nie. Ouch, love much.❤   

Akhir kata, what say you?

It was last Friday matter: Twilight.

"Lot of red eyes around here.."

last Friday, aku dah tengok Twilight Breaking Dawn Part 2. nak update entry pasal benda nie dah lama tapi disebabkan terlalu heaven balik rumah, langsung jadi memalas nak online. so, hari nie rasa macam takde ape nak buat aku online then story sikit what was this film all about. oh, yang atas tu aku quote ayat Jacob cakap kat Bella. dia sorang jer werewolf, yang lain semua vampires.

ze ticket❤  

storyline by me, tiwa ze witch:

Bella is enjoying her new life and new powers, after the birth of their daughter, Renesmee. Soon, however, their family bliss is threatened again, by a new menace. Vampire Irina believes a child like Renesmee could challenge the power and existence of the Volturi. 

Irina meets Volturi to tell him about this thing. Alice with her ability in seeing future, tell all the cullens about the problem that they might face. all the family members begin to gather up all the vampires clan. they do this to prove Volturi yang Renesmee is not a wild child, dia tak immortal. 

As Irina rallies the Volturi to destroy this potential threat, Bella and the Cullens - together with any allies they can assemble - are preparing to fight a crucial, ultimate battle, to protect their family.

dalam tengah best best tengok, there was one scene yang buat aku leleh! Carlisle death. dia mati ditangan Volturi. sedih bak ang. dia kan dah lama ngan Twilight since the first one lagi. so, terasa jer bila tengok dia mati. bloody-ass punya Volturi. dush dush dush! - scene nie banyak buat aku terkejut. must-watch scene!

Garret

then, guess what. dalam cerita nie aku jumpa lagi jejaka katang! like before, in Skyfall i found Daniel Craig. dalam nie aku jumpa pulak Lee Pace! dia just sampingan jer, jadi 1 of the clans. his name is Garret in this film. he is totally amazingly cute! he with his jambang betul betul buat aku gila. kalau dia nie berjambang muka haram hensem gila. kalau takde jambang, rasa nak pandang pun tak selera. seriously, ini satu faktor aku suka kat someone - jambang. aku suka laki berjambang. macam sebelum nie Ian Somerhalder ngan jambang dia, betul betul membunuh aku.

Jacob Black

like usual, the hottest werewolf - Taylor Lautner is totally perfect..like ever. Forever. ❤  

memori membelai jiwa.

ASSALAMUALAIKUM..

a few hours left before im off to my hometown, Perak. how many hours left to read BIS note? well i've to give my very best for my final paper tomorrow. insya-Allah. so, malam nie nak ingat balik segala memori daun pisang selama menetap di Impian - Hotel berbintang bintang Kuantan. agaknya aku akan rindu jugak lah kat hostel even hati kata tak, tapi minda kata ya! apa tak rindunya, semua kawan kawan luar dalam selimut aku kenal kat sini. dari yang menikam dada sampai membelai punggung, semua aku dapat kat sini. so, kalau kata takkan rindu tu memang kencing hancing lah kan. cuti akan lama, tak bape nak lama tapi still akan berasa sebab cuti lama.

oat ❤

pertama dan utama, aku akan merindukan makanan ruji aku tiap tiap hari kat sini - oat. acah acah kat rumah tak dapat makan. memang susah sikit kalau kat rumah nak hadap dia nie tiap tiap hari bila dah mak masak macam macam kan. dah tu bila kat rumah jalan lah ceruk mana pun, celah mana pun jumpa jer lah makanan. so, oat akan dipandang sepi seterusnya bersarang lelabah lah dalam lemari dapur tu. bila lagi nak jumpa oat? well, next semester lah. gonna miss you alot!

Paul Frank, ouch ❤

hei hei hei, mari berdansa. balik nanti dah takleh nak stalk abang Paul Frank kat tangga. dah takleh nak tengok dia main lari lari hingustan kat koridor. dah takleh nak dengar dia mengada klua suara dia yang seksi tu kat tepi tandas. dah takleh nak ciom bau katang dia bila masuk tandas. ouch! haih, dah dah stop merepek kat sini. bukan bukan jer. takkan luar tabii kot tyra oii! retard, aku still bernafsu pada makhluk paling seksi sparta kook. when you look me in the eyes, im dying inside. wuwuwuwuwu :3

tiwa munchter punye ❤

harta guwa tetap akan jadi harta guwa. nanti nak letak kat bilik bawah bilik warden tu jangan bila balik nanti aku nak g amik dah takde pulak. memang naya aku round satu hostel cari! mengada kan g tulis nama besor besor kat baldi. baldi jer pun. ek eleyh baldi pun, baldi nie berharga sangat sebab mak aku yang beli masa datang sini. so, aku sayang dia lebih dari berus gigi, patung, dan segala yang lain yang aku beli sendiri. benda mak ayah aku beli memang aku sayang sangat so kalau hilang memang rasa ralat lah! kalau jumpa memang aku rasa nak maki bila jumpa orang yang curi tu, oopps yang 'pinjam' tu. exactly. LOL. before nie dah pernah hilang so aku tulis lah bebesor nama kat situ. bagi dari jauh nampak hak aku baldi nie. kalau tak nampak rabun jugak tak tawu lah. memang kakiku sentiasa dipipimu lah kan. so, adik baldi tolong jaga diri leklok masa semester break nie yer. kakak takde nak jaga adik. ingat kakak selalu yer. ada sesape kacau sebut nama akak jer. tiwa munchter. shuwit shikit. hiuhiu :D

part of me ❤

"Twinkle, twinkle, little star,

How I wonder what you are.

Up above the world so high,

Like a diamond in the sky.

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,

How I wonder what you are"

ini adalah benda perlu ada dalam bilik aku, masa tido aku. kena ada sebab kalau takde tido mesti tak selesa gila. mesti tido sejuk sejan. so kalau pakai nie, selesa tido. sapu losyen kat kaki, massage kaki, lepas tu pakai dia nie. wuwuwu, rasa super kiut. hehe. sape lagi nak kata aku comel, aku sendiri jer lah. dari bibir montok nie kita kluarkan kata kata comel untuk diri kita. rasa dihargai oleh diri sendiri. uh oh. sparta kook? wuwuwuwu. so nanti masa nak naik bus esok tak boleh lupa letak sekali dalam bag laptop. so, nanti leh pakai. 8jam yaw! kalau tak kejang lah aku punya urat kencing, sejuk ..dah lah malam. haa lupa nak gtawu, this cutie sock was given by my ayah. tu yang sayang sangat. eh tak, actually nak cakap yang tu pasal lah selesa sangat. sebab ayah bagi. rasa kasih sayang seorang bapa tu. suam suam kuku gituww. *kukumalu* mieheheh. lebihan pulak. suka lah hati, i loveyou dediiyy. *muahMuah*

BeBo❤

this is BeBo! anak aku. aku ibu dia. jadi cerita dia kat sini, dia akan tinggal ngan kakLong berdua kat dalam bag. nanti ibu balik yer. takleh nak ikut balik same, tak muat luggage. BeBo dah besar so jaga diri eyh. jangan pupup merata rata taw. tahan sampai ibu balik. main ngan kakLong. kakLong nanti akan nyanyi untuk BeBo tiap tiap malam before tido. ibu dah suruh dia nyanyi. hehe. gonna miss u alot! uh oh, actually dah start rindu dah nie. acane? :|

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." 

-Marylin Monroe

one word - bye. ❤

goodbye *mata stim*

sejak dua tiga entry yang lepas aku sedar yang aku update banyak entry pendek pendek. entah lah. my life is getting boring? actually me myself pun tak tawu lah kenapa. tak banyak benda nak cakap kat sini. apa yang aku leh, eh tak, rajin nak taip aku taip. malas datang, takde lah. 

oh tadi petang, eh actually semalam something about A THING dah clear betul. that boy, eh should i call him with some other proper word rather than 'boy'? but my head is getting dumb as it fails to well-f(x). so, let it be just use that word of boy. the capital one, hesh bee lah. he's off with a girl that i know. why? he's having a new relationship with someone that i never thinking of! kira apa aku nampak masa ary jumaat tu bukan ilusi semata mata. my eyes were not lying me. all i can say is, he is dumbass ever. the girl before is much better than the new one. and me myself also admit that she even better than me. so what more he can say? i can say nothing, but all i can say is - the feeling towards him are all gone. definitely, all are gone. the feeling just like i've flushed off after having a nice moment in some place called 'toilet'. tiga ratus enam puluh with bulat kecik kat atas berubah. say 'tata' to my old sweet wuwi crushie. 

apa yang aku nak cakap sekarang. apa. aku tak dapat nak bayangkan macam mana perasaan aku. aku rasa happy, bahagia. oh tak. aku rasa kosong. macam rasa mula mula dulu. macam rasa masa sebelum aku kenal ngan kau. even better even happier. aku tak tawu sebab apa. mungkin sebab aku dapat lihat ngan jelas apa aku nak sebenarnya. bukan kau tapi someone yang better. aku tak salah buat silap dulu. dan aku rasa aku boleh berbahagia cakap ngan kau kalau kita still satu class. 

i'm happy for your happiness too

so, with no more doubt my blog will never mention your name again. perhaps. i wish u happy with ur new girl. have a happy ending! ❤  

lifeless week on 2012.

my head is getting tired. my brain too. oh my ear exactly yes. hari hari buang masa depan lappy. dari kan pagy ke malam. tutup, tido. and the things are keep repeating day by day. all day long. bosan enough!

my ears, these pair of dear ear is getting broken inside. sakit kepala sangat, hari hari pakai headphone tengok movies, runningman, tv shows and etcetera. a lifeless week.

4 more days to waste. on movies, instant noodles, nesvita, hot chocolate, biscuits and laptop. i'm destroying my whole part of body. and once i arrived in Perak, im fully broken no returnable goods.

nothing to do here. just wondering on something. aku ada peluang dapat cancer otak ke? what if the possibility is higher?  curious.

please move faster dear days. i need my home a lot. 4 more days, 4 more days, and 4 more days....still remain 4 more days.

twitter: not active

facebook: am i still one of the member?

blog: miss it a lot!

tagged: it's a crap -,-

today's paper was better than before. yeay me! i did it well i guess. wish for the good luck on my next paper 2 days from now. ya Allah, help me out. Alhamdulillah for today's. :)

nota kaki: congrats to my lovely cousins - dini and ekin - in getting 4A1B and 3A2B for the UPSR. both of you did it well. well done darlings. ❤

Only in Hogwarts.

how i wish that this thing would happen in my college...

so, i'll have my holidays earlier!

INDEED, it's absolutely might happen in Hogwarts only.

even in a dream, oh i'll never had this kinda dream!

what a pathetic me.

pffttt, the paper that i had before is not so easy.

i don't think i did it well!

dear next paper on Monday, please be nice to me.

 ❤

the 2B pencil owner,

tiwa

Few minutes to go.

ASSALAMUALAIKUM

8:02AM

Selamat Pagy. Hari nie merupakan hari pertama bagi aku dan kawan kawan menempuh peperiksaan akhir semester. Bangun awal pada pukul 6:13 pagy. Baca apa yang patut. Apa yang boleh masuk lagi setakat nie. Perasaan masa nak espiyem datang, tapi lain lah sikit sebab exam nie takde main calculator. Rindu ngat aih ngan mathematics.

Dear mak,

Dengar suara mak tadi rasa bersalah pulak bila ingat yang yong banyak main semester nie. Rasa macam pointer akan turun. Tapi kita boleh janji yang kita cuba sedaya upaya buat leklok japgi. Harap mak doakan yong boleh jawab paper pagy nie. Yong janji buat yang terbaik untuk mak.

Dear ayah,

Cukup dengar suara ayah tadi, yong rasa semangat nak buat leklok. Ayah doakan yong taw. Ayah mintak yong jawab laju takde stuck or blank masa dalam hall. Ayah, kalau yong punya pointer tak memberangsangkan, yong mintak maaf sangat sangat. Memang yong mengaku yong banyak main semester nie. Tak focus dalam class. Class banyak ponteng. Test pun ada yang tak attend. Yong mintak maaf sangat. Yong akan cuba buat yang terbaik untuk exam nie.

Yong sayang mak, yong sayang ayah. Yong janji yong akan mula balik dari awal semester depan. Yong harap yong tak main main dah next semester. Ayah, mak jangan risau. Yong akan buat yang terbaik untuk ayah ngan mak. Yong janji.

Dear sahabats,

disini aku ucapkan semua yang rapat dan juga tidak. Yang kawan melebih mahupun kurang, aku harap yang terbaik buat korang. Buat leklok. Usaha yang berbeza, tahap kepandaian yang berlainan, tapi ucapan yang sama: I wish all of you best of luck!

p/s: shine bright like a diamond.

Espiyem-parody candidate,

Tiwa munchter

12 days more to count.

12 days more left before i'm off to my hometown, Perak! well the ticket i've purchased before at Terminal Makmur, Kuantan. dengan perasaan teruja berbaur gumbira, ingin diri ini up satu entry untuk tatapan adik adik yang berada di rumah. and here proudly presenting my dear ticket!

sila lihat tarikh yong beli tiket tu, cun kan. 10/11/12. yesterday, with my dear roommates - ecan, kutek, and jimah jack - off to bando, well hanya untuk mendapatkan udara kuantan sebelum berangkat bercuti nanti. dan satu lagi benda best nak share, yong naik bas seng heng! back to the old days okay. so much classic. ingat tak masa yong tusyen dulu? naik bas jugak ulang alik. still ingat nama bas tu sebab tu lah satu satunya public transport yang ada, red & yellow omnibus. sebelum balik rumah jer mesti beli maruku kat uncle indian muslim bawah tangga terminal. beli 2-3 kampit sebab tawu mak ngan ayah suka makan. mih mih. tiket dia memang takde beza satu zarah pun. sama jer perwatakan bentuk dia. and i have to keep it in my purse, it so shomel. and one more thing, the floor of the bus is made of wooden. classic much, i loike!

dan setibanya yong kat megamall, yong happy lah sebab bau mekdi menyengat nyengat nostril yong. kitorang pun queue up lah, pilih pilih nak makan apa. big mac, mega mac, dabel cheese burger, triple cheese burger, mc chicken burger, apple pie, semua pun nampak sedap. last last yong makan big mac. yong was so full at that time. angkat kaki gi ATM sebab nak keluar duit. last week nak keluar duit tak boleh sebab kad buat hal. masuk kad pertama, maybank rejected! masuk lagi, try lagi. DISCARDED! okay foine foine, yong guna kad kedua, bank rakyat. masuk dengan penuh harapan. everything were just fine at the beginning. and suddenly some words popped-out of the screen, REJECTED! what a bad day yong had. yong was so upset. so yong tak keluar duit semalam. dalam purse memang tinggal doploh hinggit jer. tu pun nak beli barang perut untuk dua minggu nie.

even full of money, yet it's useless enough!

so, yong ikut jer lah budak budak bilik nie gi book fair. memang rasa nak menangis air mata nanah masa tu. bapak ah murah gila semua buku, novel bagai. turun gila gila harga. dari harga 59 turun jadi 19. tak ker sakit hati masa tu lah kad takleh pakai! yong nak beli buku yakjuj makjuj bagi kat ayah. tapi tu lah, kad buat hal. yong nak beli novel vampire diaries, tapi takde rezeki. english novel memang turun membabi buta sangat sangat. rasa macam nak terajang terajang jer ATM tu, kad nie pun, rasa macam nak kepak kepak jer.

tapi nasib baik lah ada beli something untuk ayah sebelum tu. masa yong makan kat mekdi, ada abang sorang nie datang jual jual CD. yong beli lah satu sebab ingat kat ayah. selalu kalau balik yong beli barang untuk mak jer. selalu beli CD cerita korea jer. so, beli lah benda nie. tak mahal, tapi harap ayah suka. selalu kalau kat rumah yong tengok ayah suka dengar ceramah UAI. bila abang tu datang kat meja, yong dengar dia pot pet pot pet, then terus jer beli. so, nanti ayah boleh dengar kat rumah sambil duduk duduk takde buat ape tu.

and guess what. my dear bestfriend, Nadya bagi pinjam kat yong seratus. dia baik sangat. nasib baik lah ada dia. kalau tak habis lah dua minggu nie. even bukan lah nak guna sangat duit tu sebab sumber makanan cukup. tapi tangan nie kalau takde duit, takde spare duit dalam purse, rasa takut jer. takut kot jadi apa apa yang perlukan duit. nak mintak tolong sape kan. so, before jadi apa apa yong mintak tolong ngan nadya. nasib baik dia okay. thanks nadya! kalau takde nadya, tak tawu lah apa nak jadi. :')

so, mak ayah. Perak. please wait for dear me okay. tak lama dah. and one more thing, wish me luck for my final examination. aminnn. :)

10/11/12, Saturday ❤

"Tanda berpalingnya Allah daripada kamu apabila kamu mengasihi maksiat, yakni sayang untuk meninggalkan dosa." - UAI

Unspoken words.

14:48

i don't know what to do. everything seems dull in this little room of AP 0221. nothing can make me happy anymore. all i want to do is going back to my hometown and seeing my parents. my siblings. mood is always swing, dia tak pernah kisah masa, bila, kat mana mana pun dia berubah ubah. kadang kadang tu aku tarik muka ngan kawan kawan. bila dorang tanye kenapa aku muka macam ada masalah aku pun tak tawu nak jawab apa. benda tetiba jadi. tarik muka tanpa sebab. mood berubah tanpa approval aku. apa aku boleh buat? terima seadanya. 

6th November

say goodbye to dear capital hesh bee. it was our final meeting i guess. final meeting for this semester and maybe for this year. final meeting as a group member. final meeting as a classmate. final meeting as a stranger. i don't think we're going to meet again in our next semester since i know you're about to leave our class for some other reason. i know that it's the best way to walk on. i'll pray the best for you. i never hope anything more from you since i'm always remembered on what you've done to me before. everything could be just fine if you get your ass off. i never be the same, just like you. i've tried everything to be as professional as i could. i've stayed in our group 'till our last task. i've given all my commitment to our group. i hope that i did it well. i hope that everyone in our group happy with what i've contributed. the truth is i want to talk to you, but it seems like nothing can be done anymore. we're being awkward since the last thing that happened between me and you. i do appreciate that you're being professional too, giving all your best for our group assignments. thankyou. and i do admit that i don't hate you because i can't hate you since it's hard to hate you. the last thing that i've done to you was painting on your face for our roleplay. i feel nothing, but honestly deep inside i was really miss you. yes, with no doubt i'm saying this, i do have a special feeling towards you 'till now. but i strongly believe that the special feeling is nothing if i have to lose my friends and how i wish that we never had any special relationship before. how i wish that you never had any special feeling towards me before. how i wish that we're always can be friend. how i wish that i could pinch you like i used to. how i wish that we could spend time together like we used to. the same day on last semester i still remember that we're still in a good condition. waiting for the final and we always talked to each other. saying weird things towards each other. like a sister and a brother. it's a weird feeling, yes i do admit that i got that feeling long time ago. it was something that couldn't be voiced out using spoken words. it something more than that. honestly, i still got feeling for you but will never ruin your new relationship since the one you have right now is of course much better than me. i can see that and you're lucky to have her. what i can say right now is i'm fine. day by day, gradually change to a better one. me is quite impressive, manage to control my heart using my mind. special thanks to the greatest one, Allah for helping me. He help me a lot in this heart matter. i don't want to be your burden anymore. anything that i updated in my blog just something that randomly come from my mind. nothing can be worried about. what written here, just leave it here. don't bring it outside. here i wanna advice you to take a good care of that little cute girl of yours. what done is done.

"don't cry because it's over, smile because it's happened."

i wish that i could meet a magic hole called portal, so that i can reverse all the things and going back to the old days that we had. i'm really wish on something stupid like that could be happened in my life. perhaps.

9th November

"Apalah ertinya hidup, jika hanya lahir dengan kad pengenalan beragama Islam, tetapi tidak mengamalkannya."

the words that i read on somewhere. dan jujurnya aku terasa. jujurnya aku malu ngan diri sendiri. malu sebab aku tak jaga diri aku baik baik. banyak benda yang aku nak cuba ubah tapi banyak jugak kekangan. aku harap aku dapat ubah diri aku bila bila secepat yang mungkin. aku berharap.

jujur ini aku,

tyra

Skyfall makes my heart burst again.

The Older, The Wiser.

Thrilling and beautifully photographed! Seriously, it’s not a waste of money-penny to watch this movie! All I can say is ‘AWESOME’. And starting from today, I’ve fell for you Craig. Ouch actually the Bond one..the characters of Bond has made me fully-melted! Gila tak gila wey, before ney aku memang tak minat langsung tengok James Bond. Dalam kata lain memang tak pernah tengok, never once in my life take it as a serious thing. Pada aku dulu James Bond nie cerita tua tua, cerita spy spy macam cerita spy yang lain lain. Biasa. But, today everything has changed bebeh. I’ve watched that movie because my roommate envy him so much. Dan apa yang terjadi diluar kawalan, aku rasa aku sangat sangat sangat sangat rugi sebab tak ikut movie nie dari awal dia release. Dari Bond yang mula dulu. Sesungguhnya aku adalah dikalangan orang orang yang rugi.

Dear Ecan, thanks a lot sebab meyakinkan aku untuk menonton movie nie. Thanks a lot to my bestfriend, Nanad and two other buddies Momo and Reen too for watching the movie together with me. Dear Twitterian, thanks. Thanks for all the tweets yang meyakinkan aku untuk menonton movie nie. It was awesome. Fabulousity!

Well this movie is of course all about spy’s world. As all of u already knew that this film was directed by Sam Mendes and it’s starring by supey-dupey hot actor named Daniel Craig. All I can say here that he’s hot. Oh apa dah terjadi pada aku. Taste aku gradually changed. By right, aku senang jatuh hati pada jejaka tua dan berjambang. Just like before, Ian Somerhalder! Tapi Ian takde lah setua Craig. Yet still berjambang. Actually tak lah jambang sangat, macam ada ngan takde jer jambang dia. Look so matured. I don’t know what is going on with my taste lately. But still I less care about it langsung pun. Kejadahnya cakap pasal laki. Durjana sungguh.

Back to our topic here, it’s Skyfall for sure bebeh. This film began with some action. Marvelous action okay! Bond was shot at his chest masa dia tengah duk lawan lawan ngan musuh atas train. On the train! U should watch that scene. Dub dab dub dab jantung aku masa nie. Ingatkan dia dah mati tapi actually he’s not pun. Kalau permulaan filem dia dah mati bukan cerita dialah namanya kan.

Tiba tiba kedengaran lagu Adele. It is Skyfall. Memang best lah cerita dia bila lagu Adele kan. Skyfall by Adele is the song theme for this Bond’s season. Song theme? Ahahah, boleh lah. Decomers kata. Setibanya di bilik numbered AP 02-21, terus bukak capt Toshiba then online. Konon nak download lagu Skyfall. Jatuh cinta sangat lah kononnya. Acah acah line broadband laju. Memang laju lah cerita dia! Takleh download. Hampa. Dah cukup kuota LOL. Pegi bilik Momo cakap kat dia. Dia tolong downloadkan. Thanks Momo. Love u much much.

Banyak sangat scene yang best best! Nak listing semua memang payah lah. Berjela entry nanti. So aku sarankan pada yang belum tengok sebaik baiknya anda spare some time for this movie. Seriously, tak rugi apa apa. Malahan akan jatuh hati. Jujurnya aku punya isi hati masa mula tengok tadi, macam nie:

“What kind of movie is this, kenapa lah aku leh masuk tengok cerita nie. Baik tengok sinister”

..mulanya lahhh. Masa mula mula baru start. Lama lama jadi best. Lama lagi marvelous. Lama lagi thrill, lama lagi lagi lagi awesome! Sumpah aku cakap masa cerita nie abes, my opinion about this film totally changed! 360 degree LOL. Nasib baik tak tengok sinister. Kalau tak, mesti menyesal tak tengok Skyfall! Dan aku bagi 9/10, that’s my rate. How about u?

Nota kaki: kelebihan cerita nie is of course ada Craig! Dan lagu Adele. Miahah :D

Have a blast November.

As November has begun,

I want to refresh my mind. Delete all my problems, undo all my mistakes, and save all the happy moments.

If I'm failed to do it, I will never have another chance since:

There is no next time, no time outs, no second chances, it's all about now or never.

Remember this:

If you're single, make the best of it. It's not because you're not good enough for anyone, but it means no one is good enough for you yet

And

Sometimes, you need PATIENCE in order to find true happiness. It won't come fast and it won't come easy, but it will be worth it.

What you have to do is:

Find someone who can change your life, and not just your relationship status.

For those who are frustrated on someone, here I wanna say something:

Don't feel sad over someone who gave up on you, feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would have never given up on them..

it's normal, bear it in your mind that:

People always leave. Don't worry, you get used to it and most importantly, learn to deal with it.

and please:

Stop getting attached to people so fast, because attachments lead to expectations and expectations lead to disappointments.

I know that some of you might be so stress, but still believe in Allah's plan.

"I'm worried, I'm stressed, I'm confused, but I know that Allah will make the right things happen so it will all be ok."

One thing to trust in:

You may not always understand why Allah allows certain things to happen, but you can be certain that Allah is not making any mistakes.

It's nothing to feel down about, because:

When you lost something that you've never thought, and you're patient, Allah will grant you something much better than you've ever wondered.

As we all know:

Miracle is something that even if it might hurt at first, but it is something we face to unexpectedly have a wonderful gift from Allah.

All we need is Allah, because:

Allah will make a way. When there seems to be no way.

Dear peeps, October has gone and now it's already November aite. everything will be just fine. so:

Don't cry because its over, smile because its happened.

nota kaki: all the italic sentences are found in twitter. aku just sambung ayat then make it as my welcoming speech for this dear month of November. miahah. so, kreditasi pada Twitter!